I have never felt more alone than I do right now. I feel abandoned, aboandoned by the people I cared for the most. I guess this is what happens when you get older. Everyone has a life of their own to live so why should anyone care about lil ole me and my problems. The people I cared for the most were my friends but now they're living on their own and in committed relationships or have new job opportunities and they're excited about it all but what they fail to realise is that when they were in trouble and they had problems and they were feeling lonely that I was the one to be their support, their right hand, the shoulder that they cried on. I WAS THEIR FRIEND!! But times have changed and no one remembers all that I have done for them nor the emotional support that I have given, all they know is that life is good and that they're happy 4 the time but don't fret cause when times get hard again who do you think they'll call?? ME!! But let me share a secret with you, I just might not be there to give my love, or my guidance, or my emotional support and when that time comes you may call me cruel and you may call me selfish but you know what I don't give a fuck cause now I check for me. From today I put myself 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th and everyone else can make an appointment to see me and if I have the time then maybe, just maybe I'll make an exception to the rule. I am smart, loving, caring and emotional and people may tend to take advantage of that so from today the BITCH is back, the ICE PRINCESS is back and no more shall I be kind, and loving, and sensitive to the needs of my friends but to my needs cause their the only ones that matter. So now that everyone is out living their new lives and are too busy to even sit down for lunch then you know what i say to that, FUCK EM!!! I don't need that in my life. I am strong, wise and independent and I need no one but God in my life because through him all things are possible. I will survive.