letter
I'm scared of being alone
and the reason is that everytime
that i have a moment for myself,
it's the moment when im attack
by you memories, and by thoughts of you,
even sometimes when im working
and with a lot of stress,
you come to my mind,
like an echo on my head,
of your voice, penetrating me,
deep inside, and sometimes
it doesn't let me concentrate,
but i try hard to focus,
on what im doing, and just to keep on going.
Sometimes when im really tired and i want
to get some rest, i keep on working
because of two reasons,
the firts one because of mi se�ora ,
to make her proud after all the bad things
that i've done to her and to myself,
but the truth its that you really put me
trough a lot of pain,
and i hope that you know that today
i'm who i am thanks to you,
it might be bad or might be good
but this is how i am, And the other reason
its for myself, to try to success on life,
I might be on the bottom right now
but i'll reach to the top,
just because i know i can,
and just because i know what i am.

All this nights i've been sleeping warm
but the cold is on my bones,
its been a long time since i dont see you
in my dreams, And i even miss you that way.

I started to work on my plans,
i hope you remember them,
even though you were and are
a big part of them, i dont stop
cuz of you, i keep on goin so when you come back
you see how much i've done...
Sometimes i think i'll die like this,
waiting for "my lost love"

i dont wanna make the same mistakes,
i guess i learned my lesson, and i even
learned more that that, im still discovering myself.
I doubt to fall in love again,
but i still got this hope of havin you back
or getting somebody better than you,
And just because i had so much,
i cant have less than what i had,
i have to have more to find real love...

- NKR
--07/24/2005/BF--
this is dedicated to my bigest recuerdo, the one that never goes away, the one that makes me who i am thanks to her.