As I see things around me I only realize how everything in my life had become so lifeless.  The car had an inch thick layer of dust, my books, look at them and you would know, nobody has ever turned a page for ages. The Sofa set has never been vacuumed and  the clothes well they lie all over the place. The ants are too happy with me and so they all come to meet me all the time, right in my drawing room and in my kitchen and  in the bed rooms and my balcony, even in the toilets. The spiders and the lizards too are great friends with me.

Well Friends, I have decided to ditch you. You have to go as the new me expresses himself.

I have been through a training, and I realized how I had become a spectator to the game of my own life. I wasn't playing and so the play ground was ruled by my friends ( the then friends: Lizards and ants and spiders and mosquitos and what not's) 

Be it my professional Life or my personal Life I was waiting for things to happen. I watched my life pass by and I had all the grudges against it because I wasn't winning the game of life. I would win if I played it in the first place. Oh I didn't play it because I thought I so many things, i thought of all the million ways to play but I never played it.  I am the one responsible and so realizing this I give up all grudges against life, that also means all the people in my life i had grudges against.

And it feels good, it feels good realizing and accepting that I was responsible for my sorrows, I was responsible for not playing the game of life and I was responsible for not exercising control when I should have had exercised it, me and only me.

With this realization comes the power to be.  With this realization I see the power in me, I make things happen and I do things. I talked to my boss today and talked things I would have never done before. Because then I would be so busy strategizing this crucial shot in the game that I would actually not play it. And that's when I Played it. It feels great man, not the outcome of the talk but the very fact that I played the shot. And you know what, I played it well.

The new me is certainly not helpless and powerless. The new me plays the game and the new me plays it with a vigor like never before. The new me takes risks and doesn't keep doing risk analysis. I love the new me. :)