Days have been gone
nights have been layed on the sky
and my tears made not just a river but a sea
hopefully for bringin you back but it did'nt
even thopugh your not coming back but u left my heart not just broken but smashed with a note written on it :"son...may god be with you "
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If i tried to get you back it only be just to hold u and hug u for the second time , i huged you once to help u set on ur bed and give you yours midicine ....i wish i can take back that moment and take the whole midicne bottle and hug you and die in your chest , coz i didnt know that it is that tender.
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You loved me as no one ever did and will do love me , its normal coz i am your son , but i think that what u were doing is not just a father stuff but a good person with a true feelings and faithfull care.
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I know i look desperate , not just i write letter to you m and not just u dont answer my phone calls when i ring at your phone number , and not coz i sit in front of your bed waiting u to apear , or calling you and not answer and wait you in my room and come in and say to me turn the damn music off , and and and ....but i cant help it , if you were here you would tell me ...i know
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I think now that orphan is a meaningless word to describe me , coz what i go through is more than that , feeeling low is just a start then i dont know where it will go then....